so I'm lying here in my bed listening to some old school john mayer, and emma, all i can think about is you and me and sophomore year, with sundresses, wendys, wine, amalie, red glitter, red lipstick, blush, dancing, bamboo, ribbons, pig tails, circle skirts, laughing, crying, sneaking out, double shots, turbo truffles, the good life, thor, cold corn dogs, the beach, strawberries, "shouvles" and pales, duck duck dog, holding hands, justin, kittens, gay porn, laying in your front yard, town watch, wings, matching shirts, roller coaster hills, fireworks, the lake, tulips, car accidents, mambo italliano, point shoes, lucy dresses, cigarettes, mirror father mirror, skipping class, GOD what GREAT THINGS i will always have to remember, to make me smile when I feel the saddest. the time is a flying from beneath us, but this year has proved to me that nothing will EVER change. i know we did some weird things, like our silent fight, what was that!!? whatever, its cool - but emma, we will always be close, no matter what, and i hope there is never a time when i can't tell you everything, and we will live next to each other - and we will never miss martini time, and we will always bbq outside, our husbands will be friends, and our kids WILL LOVE EACH OTHER, and god we are girls, but we love it. and emma, i love how we are always trying to learn new things. i always thought it was the competition thing, and granted somethings were, but now i just want to take more of an interest in some of the things you do now that we aren't together as often so we can connect on even more levels - ya know? so we can talk about things if we ever for some f-ed up reason run out. i'm not quite sure what's put me in this nostalgic mood, but its nice to remember these things. sometimes i feel like i'm forgetting who i am here at pacific. i don't create art, i don't challenge myself, i settle for ok grades, i laugh at myself at a far more unhealthy level. I dont dislike who i've become or rather, how i've changed, but sometimes i just miss the days of over the top art and endless excuses. anyway - i just hope you know i'll always love you - and i will always remember.